I have been struggling with my faith lately. I have been in danger of losing my home. I have doubted that God would take care of me. The situation has caused me to become paralyzed.
As you can see, I have not posted here for quite a while. Unfortunately, I failed miserably during Lent. I failed miserably during Easter. I have not been able to pray with any sincerity most of the time. I have in simple terms been a mess.
I have a little story to share. I am a great “fan” of St. Therese. I have loved her since I was a child. Even though I have had a difficult time with my prayers, I have always believed but neglected God.
“O Little Therese of the Child Jesus, please pick for me a rose from the heavenly gardens and send it to me as a message of love.* This is a line from the Novena Prayer to St. Therese. I hadn’t given it a thought, but a couple of weeks ago while food shopping, I found two miniature rose bushes with the most beautiful blooms on them. I just had to have them. My property is all natural woods. No gardens only the wildflowers that pop up on their own. I guess they are actually weeds. 🙂 These little bushes were very inexpensive so I treated my self and got both of them.
As the weeks passed I still did not give the roses a second thought. Two days ago, I received a call from the bank that they were going to work with me so that I could stay in my home. It was like someone lifted a huge weight off of my back. Yesterday everything was finalized. I have more energy than I have had for weeks.
The thing is, someone did lift that huge weight from my back. It was God. And I let my faith that He would take care of me falter. St. Therese even sent me a sign. Because of my wavering faith, I didn’t realize it.
I have been abundantly blessed. God is indeed awesome. I have learned that no matter how bleak things look, God always takes care of His children according to His plan for us. All we have to do is trust.
Here is the prayer I quoted from.
My Novena Rose Prayer
O Little Therese of the Child Jesus, please pick for me a rose
from the heavenly gardens and send it to me as a message of love.
O Little Flower of Jesus, ask God to grant the favors
I now place with confidence in your hands…
(mention in silence here)
St. Therese, help me to always believe as you did in
God’s great love for me, so that I might imitate your “Little Way” each day.